Man is made or unmade by himself; in the armoury of thought he forges the weapons by which he destroys himself; he also fashions the tools with which he builds for himself heavenly mansions of joy and strength and peace.
Ladies and gentleman, we are floating in space.
I dosed 50mg orally at 9:30 PM and watched the finale of Justified on the way up. Mild to moderate feelings of dissociation made the plot slightly confusing towards the end. After that I conducted a phone conversation with a friend with no real difficulty although I had the distinct feeling I was experiencing things from a third person perceptive. At 11:30, feeling quite wonky but not trashed by any means I redosed 70mg oral. Between then and now I have no idea what happened subjectively, or rather, I can tell you that there was nothing going on subjectively. I feel that I was fully conscious but my mind was a complete blank. I'm pretty sure I've just been sat on my bed staring at my banjo in the corner of the room without a single identifiable thought for over an hour. At some point I felt hot so I stripped to the waist and lay flat on my back breathing deeply and evenly with my mind still completely blank. It was about the most relaxed I've ever felt in my life. I guess it could be considered a hole but very different from a hexylamine hole. It was like a zen-like state of non existence. It wasn't good, it wasn't bad, it wasn't anything at all. Worthwhile? I'm not sure I can answer that. It was like being pure form without content. It was either the most boring or most fascinating experience of my life. Or maybe both at the same time.
EDIT: Reading back the above, I'm pretty sure what I've written is a really poor attempt to put into words what the experience was like. But minute by minute, all memory of the subjective effects of the drug seem to be fading away, like trying to remember a dream. I feel that this stuff has very profound and strange effects on memory. I'm not sure how recreational it is but it's pretty fascinating in my opinion.
Bonke schreef:De nieuwe MXE moet dit worden, ik ben wel benieuwd maar laat het nog even liggen tot er meer reports zijn. De laatste keer MXE werd ik zo depressief dat ik de laatste gram weg gepleurd heb een half jaar terug. Als dit wat wordt misschien nog maar eens een kansje geven...
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