The walls are melting. I repeat: The walls are melting
It's bizarre how the combinations of a high dose of acid, 2-cb, mdma and nitrous oxide can give very similar effects to the effects I got from my DMT experiences.."
- Quote's from my trip yesterday.
It's 10 PM in the evening, Saturday.
My weekend is fully destroyed, I planned an appointment with someone who would make natural dreads on my head, but she is sick and cancelled the appointment.
Shut up and Dance is also cancelled, we originally planned to trip with each other on the beach on that party, but since it was cancelled, my evening was completely blank.
I was bored as fuck, so I decided to trip on my own at Saturday.
I planned a few goals, like watching a few movies, draw a bit, and shower while tripping on acid.
I also made a new topic on DF which was supposed to be my live report topic (this actually should have been a live report) but I never continued writing it because my plans of the evening changed a bit.
So it's 10 PM in the evening, Saturday, as I'm sitting in the train to pick up the drugs.
I had already had the nitrous oxide, but I didn't have the 2-cb and LSD yet.
So when I reached my friend, I bought 2 pills of 2-cb and 4 Hoffman stamps from her.
I payed her, and got ready to pack my stuff again and to head home again, but she suggested me to come with her to do the trip at her boyfriend's house.
Which I thought was fine, because tripping "together" (although I would be the only one who was tripping, but still with other people) sounded like a lot more fun than tripping on your own, in my opinion.
I put the drugs in my bag and we walked to her boyfriend's house, where were already 3 other people, who I didn't know.
So, I introduced myself, took place on the bed, and dropped the first Hoffman around 01:00 AM.
10 minutes after dropping the acid, I felt a slight tingle through my whole body, the voices around me became more vague and I felt very funny, laughing about anything, feeling a bit euphoric.
At this point, I already knew, that this was going to be a pretty good trip.
It's 01:30 AM.
I don't feel a lot of the acid. The tingle I felt through my body before flowed away and no visuals are visible yet. Maybe it's because I'm waiting for it to kick in too much. Being focused on it too much.
I decided to drop the first 2-CB pill and after 30 minutes, still without any effect, I try to "catch" the trip by doing some nitrous oxide.
I'm inhaling my first balloon of nitrous oxide, and it's a very funny situation.
One of the people in the room is laughing constantly while inhaling his balloons (he never did it before) and I can't really keep myself from laughing either.
"Daar zitten we dan, met onze kankerballonnen" says one of the persons in the room, and there is just laughing. Laughing. Laughing. On and on and on.
Suddenly, while inhaling another balloon, this trip suddenly appears right before my eyes.
She is stroking my cheeks softly and demands me to look right into her eyes, softly speaking to me..
"I am here, come and see. Take a closer look at me. See what I have in mind for thee"
And as I accept her appearance, and my soul tries to take her in his arms, she hits me in the face, and both of the psychedelics I took earlier that evening kick in right at the same time.
She is leading me through the world of psychedelics.
I am home again.
I am tripping. And I am tripping hárd.
LSD on it's own is very harsh for people, but in combination with 2-cb the visuals always become more "soft", so you can enjoy your trip more without being constantly stabbed by the truth.
2-cb and LSD combined also give you "the truth", but in a friendlier way. The visuals are also more beautiful, different, with these two substances combined together.
It's also a lot more heavier, but if you can handle that.. it can become one of the best trips of your life. If you're lucky.
GOD, I almost forgot how much I love this combination.. my favorite combination of psychedelics of all time.
I am guided by the power of timelessness
I am trying to have a normal conversation with my friend, but it's getting harder and harder.
As I look and try to concentrate on his face while he is talking, I notice I concentrate too much and get caught in a mini psychose.
His face is changing constantly, I'm seeing over a 100 different faces in just 10 seconds. Probably because of the shadows.
The windows behind him are starting to breathe.
The wall at my right is starting to breathe and I'm scared it will eat me up, so I try not to look at it too much.
Every move people make are causing a bunch of more visuals, like black and white patterns starting to show over the girls face next to me.
I can barely even see the room anymore because of all the visuals, but I'm having a great time.
My trip is still ongoing and two of my friends decide to trip on MDMA.
Two of the people in the room have already left, I think they didn't like the fact that we are so open about drug using, which made me feel a bit guilty because I didn't know that.
I'm the only one in the room who's tripping on psychedelics, the guy on the left is smoking weed, and my friend offers to take a MDMA trip with them.
I only did candyflipping once, a couple of months ago, but I can't really remember a lot from it because I was very tired.
I took too much MDMA, could barely open my eyes, and the MDMA kicked in before the acid did, which wasn't great either.
I only remember feeling really good (of course) and that the walls were disappearing constantly.
I want to give it another try and make myself a big cup of tea with some MDMA crystals and sugar in it, and drink it all up.
After a while, I notice I'm chewing a lot with my cheeks.
It feels very weird, because I'm not used to chew a lot with my cheeks on psychedelics because I never try psychedelics with uppers.
I'm taking a gum, and 10 minutes later, I'm lost.
I'm smiling a lot, I'm feeling very happy, I want to cuddle everyone and I feel my body temperature is getting higher.
But what I also notice... it that the visuals are actually changing.
The MDMA is giving the trip a whole new effect and I kinda like it.
I'm looking at the ceiling and the ceiling is getting 3 dimensional.
It already did look 3 dimensional, but I can actually see a whole new world above me.
I see that there are space ships flying high above me, then fly away and are letting me see the whole universe.
It's very unreal, I'm used to seeing visuals or patterns on the walls and ceiling, but I never actually saw a whole "new world" above me.
It reminds me a lot of the ceiling of Zweinstein in Harry Potter, the candles that are flowing above them and showing them the sky.
The walls are melting. I repeat: The walls are melting
When I'm on MDMA, I always see a white haze before my eyes.
I see it too, this time, but it's more vivid. Like a big fog spreading through the whole room, a bit like star dust, which is giving me a real "outer space" effect, especially because I keep seeing the whole universe above me.
All the visuals are more vivid.
They are becoming very clear and visible, more realistic than before, but also different.
Not LSD ish anymore.
I'm a fucking astronaut. What's your excuse of being here tonight?
As I'm tripping hard on the LSD, 2-CB, and MDMA, and finally see how candyflipping REALLY is, I decide to take it a bit further.
It's enough for me, because I can barely even see anymore because of the visuals, but I want to see how deep the rabbit hole can go.
I take a full box of nitrous oxide with me, and start to do a lot of balloons (I think about 80 in total for the whole night)
Still smiling, I see that the colors of the balloons are filling my whole vision.
Like, a blue balloon, turns my hands and arms blue.
A green balloon is turning my hands and arms green.
I'm a bit distracted by my hands, as i stretch them and make a fist, the bones suddenly become very very clear and visible, almost like the hands of an 80 year old woman. Or a witch.
While my hands are pretty.. "fat" normally, I can barely see the bones. So it freaks me out a bit, but also fascinates me.
The cool thing about it, is that I can also see through my hands, almost as if they are invisible a little.
As I'm finally able to make a balloon for myself, I close my eyes and try to enjoy my trip.
What I did not expect, were the very weird eye visuals.
Eye visuals on LSD are mostly like... neon colors, dancing all over the place. Mostly animals, like little frogs, or crocodiles.
Now there is just a whole world right in front of me. Like I'm being sucked into another dimension when I close my eyes.
At first, I see a small, little house standing in front of me, but very psychedelic.
Then, I see a big painting in black and white from a very famous painter I can't remember the name of, and I start to hear birds tweet, water flowing, and calm music starting to play.
A bit cliché, I must admit.
But this aren't just closed eye visuals, it looks just like I can walk through the whole world.
It's also very weird that I can see the colors black and white through all the colors, I have never seen that before on psychedelics.
I see a bunch of other worlds, but I can't remember all of them. Or describe them precisely.
I'm taking the nitrous oxide, but a whole new effect is being created as I do that, and I'm actually a bit of overwhelmed by it. In a good way.
I tried DMT 4 times, and had a breakthrough 2 times, so I know what it does, but this really reminds me of the effect of DMT!
I'm having the feeling I'm leaving my body behind, a bit of an "out of body" (ISH!) experience, but not as heavy as I have with DMT.
Other dimensions come at me, very different from the dimensions I see when closing my eyes without nitrous oxide, but more of an DMT dimension.
A big T forms in front of me, covered with a lot of patterns and small booths.
I also recognize that I'm becoming a bit ego dead.
I'm getting addicted to the mini DMT trips, so I keep making balloons for myself over and over again until the boxes are empty.
I notice my trip is almost over. The universe above me is gone, and there are just faint reflections of it shown on the ceiling. A bit like fog.
The room becomes clearer and I notice I kinda hate it that my trip is over, so I decide to take another Hoffman to make the trip last a bit longer.
It works, of course, but less heavier as earlier that evening.
I'm very sad it's over, because this might be one of the best trips I had, because the visuals were so different from what I'm used to from psychedelics..
I fall asleep around 09:00 AM, totally exhausted, when I wake up at 13:00 PM I'm still tripping a bit, but I fall asleep again. When I wake at 14:00 PM, all the visuals are gone.
I am left with a very happy feeling, I took everything out of the trip that was possible.
I saw space ships, I've had multiple DMT ish trips, I saw the universe above me and I felt like a super astronaut, on her way to discover a bit more of her consciousness. A part she never saw or knew before.
Because my trip was so beautiful, I decided to write everything down in English.
I never liked the dutch language, and I didn't want to combine it with that language.
It's more like a personal thing, I think.
Thanks for reading.